遅ればせながら、Toastmasters Divison F Speech Contestの振り返り、
やはり、勝てなかったことは悔しい。
勝つつもりでさくらマラソンも欠場し、こちらのコンテストに出たのに・・・・

しかし、考えてみれば、やはり敗因はある。

その直接の原因は、集中力。
競技、競争の世界で、集中力の強さがそのまま、勝負に競り勝つ力となる。
このことは、今までも何度となく経験してきているのに、またやってしまった。

つまり、ありもしない余裕を見せてしまったこと。
スピーチの内容はともあれ、精神面でこの時点で負け。

勝ちたい気持ちを人に譲るように、余裕を見せてしまえば競り勝つことはできない。

考えてみれば、その原因、余裕を見せてしまった理由、集中力が足りなかった理由の原因もいくつか思いつくが、言い訳にしかならない。

アー悔しい。

ただし、私の場合は、あきらめないのが信条。（ただあきらめが悪いだけ）
日本一、世界一、往生際の悪い男になる。これが、私の人生の中の一つの信条。

次の機会があれば、またその次の機会があれば、勝つまで挑戦したい。
そうすれば、きっと勝てると思うし、自信にもなる。
きっと自信にして、もっと強い人間になってやる。

そして、100まで生きて、Nobel Price for Peace。

これが、今回のスピーチのおち。

ちなみに、原稿はこんな内容でした。
Title:　My Fifty’s Ambition

指を鳴らす。・・・・
Dan Dan Didanda Shubidaden — Olee OO ee—（歌う）

This is the scene of whisky Commercial in 1993-94.
A young man came into the Bar and sit down in front of the Bartender.
He said, Today is my birthday, I am just thirty, I’m just turned thirty.
And The Bartender acted by Peter fork, He said, Ah Happy Birthday well is that mean you’ll be 31 next year.
The scene was a just casual talk at the bar to enjoy their drink.

However I memorized this scene very clear, because at the time of This TV commercial I was 29 years old and working at research laboratory in Tsukuba City. And the company I worked appointed me to move to newly established laboratory in Kansas, United State. I was just about 30.
At the time of this TV commercial, I was having a big dream to be a great business man, I wanted to study English, and I wanted to study United State, and I wanted to fly all over the world to make up the business. And also I was thinking, I will be a president of this company Hisamitsu Pharmaceutical some day. This was my ambition of my thirty (30). And these are the reason why I memorized this scene very clear, and I was saying “I’m just thirty”. （指）

Four years later, I was around 33-34 years old, and transferred again and delegated to the newly established section at Kyusyu Head office. At the time of my new work had stated, my younger children Youtaro was diagnosed Autistic he was two years old.

And Doctor said it is not curable disease and usually autistic children are hardly adjusts to the change of living environment. Doctor recommended me that you ‘d better not to move from here for a while.
Of course My wife was also so and deeply disappointed at the time.

As doctor recommended I decided not to move from I’m living. Even though I was asked from the company to move to Tokyo Office, or Factory in the United state or Office in London. These offers are happened every year but I denied because of this reason.

Like these situation my ambition was changed. I cannot move I cannot fry over the world as my earlier thought of ambition. But I did not know how I should do if the company officially appoint me to move.

From this time, I started to study national qualification of management consultant. I started to try this, because I thought I may be able to start my own business without movement.

However, this try was so difficult to me, because my basic knowledge was chemist and research in pharmaceutical area. It is far from the area I need to study. It took time a lot to pass this. But finally I could have passed this qualification in my age of 43 and started my current job in my age of 45 two years after I got Qualification.
And I saw a small light toward another ambition to be a great business man.(小声)

On the other hand,
Several months after my son was diagnosed autistic, I joined parent association of handicapped people and started supporting activity in the area of welfare. Now I do making an arrangement of welfare event such as music festival to promote interaction between general people and handicapped people. Because I believe that “Just knowing and Just understanding about handicapped people” is the best practice and most efficient way to achieve normalization that is the goal of welfare of handicapped people and this became one of the goal of my ambition.

After the birth of my son, the direction of my life tuned a lot. But my ambition was re-generated more strongly. Now I’m just fifty and thinking to alive another fifty years until 100 years old. But this way of thinking is kind of normal. Most of the parents of handicapped people like autistic want to alive more than their children, because we are anxious about their life if they become alone.

However, I found the way.
To alive another fifty years could give me a lot of chance to become great business man again. In order to be so, I want to study more, and train more physically.

I train by running more than 10km every day to make healthy and strong body. This gives me a tough mental strength and positive way of thinking.

Now my ambition is to build up the company hiring 10,000 handicapped people in next fifty years. I also want to expand my business to outside of Japan such as developing country in Africa and some place in Asia some day, and be awarded novel prize for peace in 2064 at my age one hundred (100).

Thinking these is so enjoyable to me and I would like you to watch me in my next fifty years.

Finally, I would like to say many thanks to my son giving me an energy and chance to have another ambition.

I’m just fifty, but I feel like a young man who said “I’m just thirty”.
So I enjoy my life with this memory. (指)

Dan dan dadan shubidaden …

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